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Tue, Mar. 20th, 2007, 09:32 am
bored in class

How old will you be in 10 months?
21 :)

Do you think you'll be married by then?
hahaha...

What do you look forward to most in the next 3 months?
the SUMMER!

Who was the last person you called?
nobody today.

Who was the last person to call you?
mom

Do you prefer to call or text?
call

What were you doing at 12am last night?
eating @ dennys with chris and kevin

Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
flip flops

Are you a social person?
depends on who im with

What was the last thing you ate?
nothing yet today. unless you count tea

What is your favorite ice cream?
coffee. or lemon sorbet.

What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
hate pb and j

Do you like coffee?
im addicted. i think i need help.

Last movie rented?
havent rented anything in forever. last movies i saw in the theater though were  smokin' aces,  black snake moan and 300

Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
whichever side isnt being hogged by someone that shall remain nameless

Do you like to cuddle?
yes indeed

Have you ever been to Canada?
nope

Do you eat out or at home more often?
both, depends on how much food is left in the house

Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
not anymore

Do you speak any other languages?
polish

Have you ever gotten stitches?
yep

Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seats?
HATE sitting in aisle seats

What is your favorite thing to spend your money on?
coffee. and anything that involves friends and getting out of the house

Can you roll your tongue?
yes

Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
no.

Do you shut off the water when you brush your teeth?
not usually

Do you sleep with your closet doors opened or closed?
dont have a closet at the moment

Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of killer bees?
bear

Do you flirt a lot?
with one person, yes, excessively.

Mon, Oct. 23rd, 2006, 04:56 pm

Why must I always be indecisive? Why???

Sun, Oct. 15th, 2006, 10:23 pm

ive realized im really horrible at making new friends. and it doesnt help that i dont live on campus and all the people in my classes this semester are really lame. its really frustrating and im starting to get sick of it. someone teach me how to be more social please. i miss how easy it was to make new friends at clark. it doesnt seem like it is until you leave it and have to really go out of your way to get to know someone. hopefully ill eventually move into the dorms here but what do i do until then? i know a couple cool guys in my classes but its a little weird asking a guy if he wants to hang out when he knows youre in a relationship. unless youre hanging out with a group. bah. why does it have to be awkward! grr.

Wed, Sep. 20th, 2006, 05:29 pm
wasting time before class

1.where were you an hour ago?
in class

2. Who will be your next kiss?
christopher :)

3. What is the largest amount of money you spent in one store?
about $250 for books

4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
a sticker on the back of a computer

5. When is the last time you went to the mall?
quite a long time ago

6. Are you wearing socks right now?
nope

8. When was the last time you went out of town?
when i was at clark

9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
nope, but going this friday

11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
water

12.What are you wearing right now?
jeans and a hoodie

13. have you been in a car wash?
yes...

14. Last fast food you ate?
toast n coffee this morning

15. Where were you last week on Saturday?
at a party at cat's

16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
nope

17.When was the last time you went running?
hah...

18. What's the last sporting event you watched?
world cup

9. What is your favorite class?
western civilization

20. Your dream vacation?
poland, italy, croatia, spain, austria.

21. Last persons house you were in?
chris'

22. How old are your parents?
old and insane

23. Are you in love?
yes indeed

24. Do you miss anyone?
jonny, kas, and my doggie

25. Last play you saw?
cant remember the last time i saw a play. probably something at valley like 4 years ago.

27. What are your plans for tonight?
might do something with cat but will probably end up going to bed.

28. Who is the last person you sent a comment to on myspace?
jonny

29. What's your favorite, Chinese food or tacos?
home made tacos at chris'

30. Ever go to camp?
yes

31. Were you an honor roll student in school?
yep

32. What do you want to know about the future?
nothing and everything.

33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
umm... i smell like my shampoo, does that count?

34. Are you hungry?
no but i want some tea. with lemon. mmm warm tea.

35. Where is/are your best friend(s) located?
on his way to class, and at work

36. Who is/are your best friend(s)?
chris, cat, jonny, kas

37. Do you have a tan?
yes, a tan in september...

38. How old do you want to be when you have kids?
i dont want kids

41. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?
umm... two summers ago

42. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
um, yes?

43. How do you like your drinks?
polish

44. Do you like hot sauce?
depens what its on

45. Last time you took a shower?
this morning

46. Do you need to do laundry?
nope

47. What is your age?
20

48. Are you someones best friend?
didn't we cover this?

49. Are you rich?
im a college student, take a guess.

Mon, Sep. 4th, 2006, 09:02 pm

WRATH.

1. Who did you last get angry with?
the idiot nurse at pres.


2. What is your weapon of choice?
words cause more pain then any weapon ever could.

3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?
why?

4. How about of the same sex?
again, why?

5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you?
maybe dylan because i yelled at him

6. What is your pet peeve?
stupidity


7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
i dont have enough patience to keep a grudge.


SLOTH.

1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't?
work out, umm, umm...

2. What is the latest you've ever woken up?
maybe 5 or so

3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't?
meh, im good with everyone im in contact with

4. What is the last lame excuse you made?
cant remember. excuses are pointless.

5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through?
most likely

6. When was the last time you got in a good workout?
last week

7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today?
twice


GLUTTONY.

1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?
mexican latte (not at starbucks)

2. Meat eaters:
mmm dead stuff

3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?
10 beers or so

4. Have you ever used a professional diet company?
no

5. Do you have an issue with your weight?
sometimes

6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods?
i like all 3 just depends on the mood

7. Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought "lunch"?
hahaha. poodle sandwich!


LUST.

1. How many people have you seen naked?
a handful

2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family):
a handful

3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of the opposite gender during a normal conversation?
yes

4. Have you "done it"?
yes

5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice?
hands

6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?
no

7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy?
i havnt been tested yet, but as far as "had to", everyone "has to".


GREED.

1. How many credit cards do you own?
0

2. What's your guilty pleasure store?
i like target. and barnes and noble. and thrift stores are my new favorite place to get jeans because they come already worn in for you.

3. If you had $10 million, what would you do with it?
pay for college, buy an apartment and a car, save the rest.

4. Would you rather be rich, or famous?
rich, never famous

5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks?
depends how boring

6. Have you ever stolen anything?
yes

7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive?
a lot


PRIDE.

1. What's one thing you have done that you're most proud of?
not quitting my job

2. What's one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of?
idk, not gotten pregnant? lol

3. What things would you like to accomplish in your life?
just be happy. thats all i want.

4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?
depends

5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?
uhh, what kind of question is this?

6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score?
yes, isnt that usually the reason why people cheat?

7. What did you do today that you're proud of?
i got some sleep.


ENVY.

1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own?
a functioning motor vehicle

2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with?
no one.

3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?
me.

4. Have you ever been cheated on?
no

5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?
hasnt everyone. id prefer to just stick with what ive got though.

6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?
optimism. nah i can live without that. umm, shit idk. im happy just being me. this quiz is retarded.

7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey?
that would be pretty sad now wouldnt it

Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin?
lust

Fri, Jul. 7th, 2006, 12:20 am

"One of the bad things about technology: we have no reason to leave our houses. We watch TV or get on the computer to feel less alone and when we do venture outside of our homes we are still trapped in our cars.  It seems like everyone is either living in their box, travelling in their box, or being amused by their box. All these boxes are barriers between me and my fellow human."

Objectives for tomorrow: go to gym, spend time with mom, chris, cat, dylan, finish painting room.

Sun, Jul. 2nd, 2006, 02:07 am

one of the local radio stations is doing a 90's themed weekend and theyve been playing all kinds of cheesy boy band pop mixed with alternative rock and hardcore grunge. its been providing me with endless amusement lol. anyway, my birthday was pretty mellow but happy. i hung out with chris all day and went out to lunch, then met up with cat n dylan for some late night ihoppin and couldnt stop laughing for like an hour, i cant remember why lol. then a couple nights ago me n cat found an awesome spot with a view of the whole city and the airport so we can see the fireworks and watch the planes come in on the 4th. cant wait. i also spent like an hour by the pool yesterday and got a pretty noticeable tan. crazy new mexico sun. theres like my whole week in a few sentences for you. also, my mom is back from poland and she brought pictures. im so uber jealous.

Thu, Jun. 22nd, 2006, 03:17 pm

hmm, so the last few days have been going pretty good. ive had a lot more time alone to think about stuff. youd think that would be a bad thing but im kind of suprised by the fact that it hasnt been. its nice to have cool people to hang out with again that i dont feel like i have to impress all the time. ive got plans to go play tennis with cat later and a job interview tomorrow morning. and i miss my christopher. and now i need to go do laundry because ive got virtually nothing left to wear. lateroo.

Sun, Jun. 11th, 2006, 03:55 pm

theres nothing better then not entirely sober trips to ihop at 2 am. esp when accompanied by 2 of my favorite people. :D

Mon, Jun. 5th, 2006, 06:55 pm

Theres a billboard along the highway in town that says "Just thinking about you makes someone smile. Feel better." 
It always makes me happy.

Fri, Jun. 2nd, 2006, 03:52 pm

1. The last person I kissed was: christopher

2. Never in my life have I: backpacked across europe

3. The one person who can drive me nuts, but then can always manage to make me smile is: chris

4. The high school I went to was: sandia

5. When I'm nervous: i cant sit still

6. The last time I cried was: a few days ago because of frustration

7. If I were to get married right now my bridesmaids/groomsmen would be: idk, im not getting married anytime soon

9. My hair: is starting to grow out again

10. When I was 5: i lived in poland

11. Last Christmas: i wish i could of gone to arizona to see my sister

12. When I turn my head right: i see my closet

13. I should be: looking for a job

14. When I Look Down I See: my hands and my laptop

15. The craziest recent event was: lol last wednesday with cat

16. If I were a character on Friends I'd be: monica. shes compulsive and she emarrasses herself a lot

17. By this time next year: i'll be in poland. dear god i hope so.

18. I love: rain, funny movies, good friends

19. I have a hard time understanding: republicans, homophobia, closed-mindedness, and people in general.

20. One time at a family gathering: we went to a persian restaurant. good stuff.

21. You know I like you if: i make fun of you/mock you a lot

22. If I won an award, the first person(people) I'd thank is(are): my parents

23. Take my advice: hmm, i think we have a tendency to idolize the people we love. just know that everyone is human and will make mistakes.

24. My ideal breakfast is: coffee and a portobello mushroom sandwich from flying star

25. If you visit the place I grew up: bring an umbrella

26. Soon I plan on visiting: the fabulous dorms at UNM

27. If you spend the night at my house: umm... bring a toothbrush?

28. I'd stop my wedding if: hah, i dont even know if i want to get married

29. The world could do without: hatred, stupidity

30. I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: live in texas

31. The most recent thing I bought myself is: new sunglasses, a movie ticket

32. The most recent thing someone bought for me: lunch

33. My favorite song is: tangerine, led zeppelin

34. My favorite brunette is: my mom

35. My favorite redhead is: kas

36. My family is: scattered all over the globe and really messed up

37. The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are: i think its best to just leave evolution alone

38. I should have been: looking for a job

39. Once, at a bar: i drank

40. Last night I: made tacos and watched scrubs with chris

41. There's this guy/girl I know that's amazing but: he's at work right now

42: I don't know: how to explain myself very well

43. A better name for me would be: i like my name

44. If I ever go back to school I'll: im going back this fall

45. My birthday is: june 29th

46. What I really wanted for Valentines day was: love

47. I'm wearing: jeans, a white tank top

48. Tomorrow I am: looking for work

49. The last thing i ate was: tacos

50. I really want to learn: everything about history and religion, spanish, russian, and to be 100% fluent in polish again

Thu, Jun. 1st, 2006, 01:26 pm

its finally starting to feel like summer and its making me happy. i spent a few hours hanging out at the pool yesterday and actually got a tan, which was sweet. then i went and played mini golf and saw a movie with chris and later curled up on his bed and watched some scrubs episodes. it was a good day. any day that ends with curling up on the bed with someone is always a good day. i havent had one of those in a while.

my mom left on monday. shes going to be in poland for a month. god i miss it so much. i need to apply for a summer program again next year so i can go spend 8 weeks in krakow. if i dont get to go next summer i think i might lose it.

and now im really tired. mmm lazy afternoons watching law and order. and yay for iced tea and grilled cheese sandwiches. goober is trying to climb up on the sofa chair with me and lick me to death so i think ill go now.

Wed, May. 3rd, 2006, 03:54 am

republicans fucking piss me off. they never have any facts to back up their arguments. and whenever i try to have some sort of logical discussion with them about anything they get defensive and retreat with statements like "this is what i think and i really dont care if you agree or not." ugh. way to be mature about it.

Sun, Apr. 30th, 2006, 11:13 pm

so school is done and i can do a happy dance because for the first time in a long time i actually liked my classes and think i did really well in them. i just finished filling out my summer application for UNM, so i guess ill find out soon wether ill be going there this summer. if not ill do tvi again until the fall. either way, im excited. the pool will open soon and i can get another job and have money for stuff and can finally get another tattoo. woot for me. ok , i think its time to spoon the christopher and watch a movie.

Fri, Apr. 28th, 2006, 01:16 am

i feel pretty stupid right about now. but i think i can honestly say that i truly believe that things are going to get better from tonight on. maybe ill finally get my shit together, and maybe me and my mom will start fighting less, and maybe ill get a good roomate at UNM and a job nearby and my life will finally feel like its all going in one direction. for now i just feel like ive been incredibly selfish. and i wish i could say just how sorry i am. and that now that i know what ive been doing wrong im going to make damn sure to fix it. it hurts to know that ive done things that have hurt him. but i guess all there is left to say is that im really looking forward to the future. and i know that not everything in our lives is going to be ok, but that we will be. and i really believe that. and that makes me happy, because being with him makes me happy. more than anything.

Mon, Apr. 24th, 2006, 12:43 pm
bored before class

[Relationship Status] - taken
[Shoe size] - 8
[Siblings] - none
[Pets] - champ, sideshow bob

FAVORITES
[Color] - red
[Number] - umm...
[Animal] - dogs
[Book] - anything by kurt vonnegut
[Flower] - sunflowers, and tulips because they smell pretty

DO YOU
[Twirl your hair?] - yes
[Have tattoos?] - one
[Cheat on tests?] - i have before yes
[Like roller coasters?] - meh
[Wish you could live somewhere else?]- aside from wanting to go back to poland for a while im fine where i am
[Like cleaning?] - no
[Write in cursive or print?] - sort of a combination of both
[Know how to drive?] - yes
[Own a cell phone?] - yes
[Ever get off the internet?] - lol

HAVE YOU EVER
[Been in a fist fight?] - no
[considered a life of crime?] - no
[Considered being a hooker?] - gross
[Been in love?] - yes
[Made out with JUST a friend?] - yes
[Kicked someone in the nuts?] - not on purpose

CURRENT..
[Current clothing] - gray skirt and a white tank top
[Current hair] - wet since i just tok a shower
[Current thing I ought to be doing]- getting ready to go
[Current CD in stereo]- nin mix
[Last movie you saw] - lucky number slevin

RANDOM THINGS...
[Last thing you ate] - onion bagel
[Believe there is life on other planets?]- sure
[Read the newspaper?] - online. and every once in a while i read newsweek
[Hate yourself?] - only sometimes
[Collect anything?] - no
[Like your handwriting?] - sure

LOVE..
[First crush] - in 1st grade
[You believe in love at first sight?] - no
[You believe in "the one?"] - idk
[Are you a tease?] - i can be
[Too shy to make the first move?] - im shy but i can make the first move

ARE YOU A...
[Daydreamer] - sometimes
[Sarcastic] - no...
[Introvert] - i can be
[Extrovert] - i can be

WOULD YOU RATHER...
[Pierce your nose or lip?] lip
[Be serious or funny?]- funny

ARE YOU...
[Simple or complicated?] - i think im pretty simple. people tend to think im complex, idk why that is.

WHAT DO YOU WANT...
[Where do you want to live] - idk
[how many kids do you want] - idk
[What kind of job do you want] - creative director, editor, photographer, something fun
[do you want to get married] - maybe someday


UNIQUE...
[Nervous Habits] - i twirl my rings
[Are you double jointed] - no
[Can you roll your tongue] - yes
[Can you raise one eyebrow]- yes
[Can you cross your eyes] - yes
[Do you make your bed daily] - not usually
CLOTHES, ETC...
[Which shoe goes on first]- which ever is closest to me
[Ever thrown one at someon?]- yes
[How Much money do you carry in your wallet] - at the moment none

IN THE LAST MONTH HAVE YOU...
[Bought something] -yes
[Gotten sick]- yes
[Sang] - in the shower
[Felt stupid] - lol yeah cuz i never do that...
[Missed someone] - yes
[Gotten drunk] - buzzed
[Gotten high] - no
[Danced crazy] - mhmm
[Gotten your hair cut] - yes
[Watched cartoons] - yes
[Lied] - yes
[Had Sex] - yes


LAST PERSON THAT...
[Slept in your bed] - ...me
[Saw you cry] - chris
[Made you cry] - chris
[Saw a movie with you] chris, ross
[Said 'I love you' to you] - chris


HAVE YOU EVER...
[Been to California] - yes
[Been to Canada] - no
[Been to Europe] - man i miss europe
[Wished you were the opposite sex] - just so i wouldnt have to deal with that lovely time of the month... or worry about getting pregnant
[Snuck out of your house] - yes

Tue, Apr. 18th, 2006, 03:01 am
oh happy day

I own the TV
'Cause tragedy thrills me
Whatever flavor it happens to be, like...
"Killed by the husband"
"Drowned by the ocean"
"Shot by his own son"
"She used the poison"

And in his dream
He kissed him goodbye
It's my kind of story
It's no fun until someone dies

Don't look me at like
I am a monster
Frown out your one face
But with the other
Stare like a junkie
Into the TV
Stare like a zombie

While the mother holds her child
Watches him die
Hands to the sky crying,
"Why, oh why?"

Cause I need to watch things die... from a distance
Vicariously I live while the whole world dies
You all needn't choose your own lie

Why can't we just admit it?
Why can't we just admit it?
We won't give pause until the blood is flowing
near the grave
The right of the story so
We won't give pause until the blood is flowing

I need to watch things die... from a good safe distance
Vicariously I live while the whole world dies
You all feel the same, so...

Why can't we just end it?

Blood like rain falling down

Part vampire
Part warrior
Carnivore and warrior
Still have the transmitter
Sink to the death rattle


Credulous at best
Your desire to believe in
Angels in the hearts of men
But pull your head on out
Your head, please, and give a listen
Shouldn't have to say it all again

The universe is hostile, so impersonal
Devour to survive... so it is, so it's always been

We all feed on tragedy
It's like blood to a vampire

Vicariously I live while the whole world dies
Much better you than I

Mon, Apr. 3rd, 2006, 10:24 pm

GAH! fucking retarded people!
so some chick in my art class today out of nowhere went off on a rant about what a horrible movie pulp fiction is, and how disgusting it is, and what a bad influence it is when she’s never even fucking seen the thing. so i asked her how it was possible for her to have such a strong opinion if she’s never even seen it and all of a sudden she shut up and started asking questions about what the movie was about and tried to seem really interested. freedom of speech is all good and fine but don’t go fucking crusading against something that you know nothing about. what’s sad is this is the same kind of stupidity we see in public schools when administration bans books from libraries before ever reading them. ugh.
another stupid chick in my soc class pissed me off the other day too. she tried to say that everyone has an equal opportunity to gain higher status in society if they just work hard enough. yeah, you tell me who you think has a better chance of going to college, someone born into poverty with 6 brothers and sisters, no father, and a mother addicted to crack or someone born into an upper-middle class family with both parents and enough money for a private tutor. not to mention the fact that public schools in poor neighborhoods continually score low on standardized tests and therefore receive less and less funding. go ahead, try to tell me that there’s nothing wrong with the system. unless you can by some miracle prove that the poor are genetically inferior and incapable of learning. yeah, didn’t think so. oh, and shall i mention that it is a statistical fact that most people tend to remain in the social class they are born into? this is not a matter of opinion, its a statistical fact.
the same girl also said that she wouldn’t look most Hispanic people in the eye if she saw them on the street, then later complained about how she was treated unfairly in Hawaii because she was white. possibly one of the most hypocritical things I've ever heard. look, try to gain some fucking perspective before you ramble on pretending to know what its like to be a member of the working class or a minority or whatever it is that you’re not.

its depressing how stupid some people are.

Fri, Mar. 31st, 2006, 06:09 pm

i love when my sister visits. happy times. plus her and greg are possibly the only members of my family with any trace of sanity. it gives me hope. and they give me beer. :)

Mon, Mar. 20th, 2006, 04:17 pm

i would just like to notify everyone that as of today i am no longer job-less. WOOT!
new tattoo here i come. :D

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